dementor attack!!!

i held her close to me
coz' i know she breaks so easily
and then i told her
but i knew no matter how i tried to console her
she'll just do the best she could
but there are times the best
is no damn good
and no matter how i tried
to be kind
there's always still
a part of you
you'll leave behind
coz' when it falls apart
there's no easy way to break
somebody's heart.

i lied and told her she'll be fine
though we both knew it was just a lie
i had to do it
coz i'd say anything
to help me get through it
then she reached out for my hand
and a simple touch was more than i could stand
and i had to turn away
coz' i knew
all the hurt that she was feelin'
i will feel it too
coz' when it falls apart
there's no easy way to break
somebody's heart.

she could have gotten angry
and make me feel like a guilty child
but i realize that never was her style
i wanted her to hurt me
and treat me not a friend
i wanted her to say
there'd be someday
i'd come crawlin' on my knees
to ask her back again
but she acted like a lady til the end
oh what a lady

i thought that she'd break down
but she smiled at me
and never made a sound
and i guess she understood
in her way
coz' the silence told me
everything she could not say
coz when it falls apart
there's no easy way to break
somebody's heart....


i am always at 'full emotion' whenever i sing (forgive me) or hear this song.
i just can't understand why this song will always be the first to come out of my mind
when i'm feeling sad. it's as if it is programmed to pop out.
oh well, it's another gloomy day.
and as far as i'm concerned it has been like this for couple of weeks now.
i wonder if they are already here, sucking out every bit of happiness i have and
reliving the ugliness of the past (sigh...sigh...sigh...)